Finally I'm starting to have a sense of what I need to do. Needing my herbal skills recently has reminded me how much I love what I am doing and how much I really will enjoy studying it under less full-on conditions. Next year will be different. So I think I will continue on but with the option of going part time if it means I don't have enough time for the boys when they are home on the other days. Next year I will be surrendering my oldest to full time school. I find myself thinking about whether we are ready, have I taught him enough? Prepared him? Am I satisfied with these six years we've had together and don't feel that there's things missing that desperately need to be covered before school becomes the place he spends most of his time. That is my main concern at the moment. But this schooling year is nearly at an end and in the holidays I will have time for my work.
During this coming year I also intend to complete my training with Harner's shamanic foundation. There is no one offering training or healing in core shamanism here in Tasmania only on the mainland and I would like to be that person. If I go overseas to do the intensive I will return able to practice something before my herbalism diploma is completed. This means I can begin to have clients sooner and contribute something to society and to my family. When the herbalism diploma is done and while I am getting a my home practice set up I might begin part time study in the midwifery diploma that I just found out about. It will all take me a while but I will be able to work while I study, which is really what i want. One of the things that put me off midwifery in the first place was the necessity to spend so long studying nursing first when for our family to be comfortable long term (whilst paying for a private Steiner school education!) we will require a second income.
So I think this is what I will do. I'm feeling pretty flexible about how I manage my hours with herbalism so if I get the Arts Council grant for my book ( I should know in the next fortnight) I can easily take some time off to get it published and in circulation. It sounds when I lay it all out like that as if I have one or two too many irons in the fire but it's not really, I am in no hurry to be all of these things. I just know that I want to be. It doesn't seem unrelated to me, shamanising, writing, herbalising and catching babies. Other than these desires to learn and serve and express I don't know anything else about the future right now but I don't really need to as it has a way of revealing itself in it's good time.
Not sure if I'm really post-poning my course or just going part-time next year. Met a fabulous woman who is training to be a mid-wife in a three year course where you don't have to do nursing first. Herbalism for two years, midwifery for three? Something like that. Not sure how and when but sure of these two things as long term interests. Wish there was a Diploma of Wise Womaning that had all this stuff bagged.
"I was hanging upside down from the overpass
Waiting to discover something about the world
I couldn't get with the program and I couldn't listen to them
It was like trying to think in reverse
And I don't want to slide into apathy
And I don't want to die in captivity
But these monsters follow me around
Hunting me down
Tryin to wipe me out
Wipe me out
Yeah I was hiding away under water
Waiting for distance and buying some time
Trying to be two hundred thousand years younger
So I could excuse myself from human kind
'Cos I don't want to be a container
Or a bastard with a ten page disclaimer
But these monsters spin me around
Get me down
Just try and shut me out
Shut me out
Hold it in your head (Believe in me, believe in me, believe)
-Something For Kate
"What do subprime mortgages, Atlantic salmon dinners, SUVs and globalization have in common?
They all depend on cheap oil. And in a world of dwindling oil supplies and steadily mounting demand around the world, there is no such thing as cheap oil. Oil might be less expensive in the middle of a recession, but it will never be cheap again.
Take away cheap oil, and the global economy is getting the shock of its life.
From the ageing oilfields of Saudi Arabia and the United States to the Canadian tar sands, from the shopping malls of Dubai to the shuttered auto plants of North America and Europe, from the made-in-China products on the shelves of the Wal-Mart down the road to the collapse of Wall Street giants, everything is connected to the price of oil
Interest rates, carbon trading, inflation, farmers’ markets and the wave of trade protectionism washing up all over the world in the wake of various economic stimulus and bailout packages – they all hinge on the new realities of a world where demand for oil eventually outstrips supply.
According to maverick economist Jeff Rubin, there will be no energy bailout. The global economy has suffered oil crises in the past, but this time around the rules have changed. And that means the future is not going to be a continuation of the past. For generations we have built wealth by burning more and more oil. Our cars, our homes, our whole world has been getting bigger in the cheap-oil era. Now it is about to get smaller.
There will be winners as well as losers as the age of globalization comes to an end. The auto industry will never recover from this oil-induced recession, but other manufacturers will be opening up mothballed factories. Distance will soon cost money, and so will burning carbon – both will bring long-lost jobs back home. We may not see the kind of economic growth that globalization has brought, but local economies will be revitalized, as will our cities and neighborhoods.
Whether we like it or not, our world is about to get a whole lot smaller. "
About the Author
Jeff Rubin was the Chief Economist at CIBC World Markets for almost twenty years. He was one of the first economists to accurately predict soaring oil prices back in 2000 and is now one of the world’s most sought after energy experts. He lives in Toronto.
"Plants convert solar energy into food for animals (ourselves included). Then the refuse of these animals, along with dead plant and animal bodies 'lies down in the dung heap' are composted and 'rise again as the corn.' This cycle of light is the reason why composting is such an important link in organic food production. It returns solar energy to the soil. In this context such common compostable materials as egg shells, hair trimmings, onion skins, vegetable peelings and even burnt toast are not seen as garbage, but sunlight on the move from one form to another." S. Sides
Cheese and sauce consuming beasts. EheheheEhehehe. Oh it's so funny because it's true!
You know, some books I buy and I realise it's going to be like a torrid fling, or brief love affair. I take it home, rip off the plastic or the envelope it arrived in and devour it in one or two sittings, only to find that it doesn't really hold my interest enough for a second read. Or it was great the first time but there wasn't really much substance that I couldn't extract from it in a single session. But there are those books, every now and again that stay with you for life, making you get them back down off that shelf and dust them down, like the great loves of your life they keep you coming back always with fresh pleasure. I feel like that about David Bader's 'One Hundred Great Books in Haiku.' Sure, it sounds shallow, reducing great works of literature to three lines, but stay with me, I think you'll be pleasantly surprised in how well they truncate.
The Archetyples and the Collective Unconscious by Carl Gustav Jung:
"A patient says he
sees the phallus of the sun
But then, who doesn't?"
Are you feeling the geek-love? Let's try another of my favs:
The Social Contract by Jean Jacques Rousseau:
"All vote. All consent.
It's like a big family.
Not mine, but someone's."
Oh and this one! This one! I read 'War and Peace' years ago now and this is seriously what I remember about it too.
War and Peace by Leo Tolstoy:
"Guns roar, Russia burns,
Where's Audrey? Who is Petya?
confused, France retreats."
And possibly a favourite:
Discipline and Punish: The Birth of the Prison by Michael Foucault:
Hot air gently blows."
Seriously, buy it. Twenty dollars admission to a geeks paradise that keeps on giving, oh I'm still grinning now.
If anyone is interested in checking out the baby-steps of our own polytheistic/pagan Intentional Community down here in Van Diemen's Land this post might interest you: annua-mycraftandsullenart.blogspot.com/2009/05/intentional-community-and-why-radical.html
This is pretty theoretical, just talking about some of the reasons and positions I hold on the whole thing. But it's going to be leading into a team-blog with others in my community which will be quite exciting. It will have both updates on our progress, tips we discover about cheap ways to do sustainable things, get around legalities etc, other cool communities and initiatives we find, and a whole lot of stuff about our various passions in traditional arts and crafts, holistic medicine, organic gardening and polytheistic resurgence.